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Tuesday, July 2, 2013

A woman's decision

    Well, I made a decision. Do you choose to go on with work and make a career for yourself or do you sacrifice it for your children. Going back to work the first day was an emotional day for me, I spent the first part of the morning sick and ready to go home. Once the afternoon hit, I felt like I was getting comfortable with being back at work and doing my job. I started liking work especially after being home for 10 weeks straight!! I think I liked it so much because I knew my mom was at home taking care of the girls for me. I always saw myself as a working mom, I never really wanted to be a stay at home mom, I think that being a working mom although you miss out on a lot stuff, it is better in the end. I feel best when I can contribute to the family (financially) and I feel more confident in myself when I am working and doing good at my job. I feel it is a positive influence on my two girls to see their mom going to work everyday and providing for them.
     That is what I had "planned" to happen, but the reality of it is that I get up the girls get up I spend little bits of time while getting ready in the morning with the girls, say goodbye, get home close to 6:30 see the family, eat, clean up, give baths if needed, tiny bit of family time then close to 9 Sophia is in bed, and hopefully some nights I can squeeze in a run, and while running I feel guilty about not spending time with my family, not to mention the financial strain it will place on the household of paying daycare for 2. It is hard to have two working parents and still have time to keep up with house stuff, and to have the energy to cook clean and play with the kids, it's so much easier when one person can focus on the household and one on work. This past Friday was my last day at Farmers, when I put in my two weeks to my supervisor I kind of broke down (HOW EMBARRASSING) but lucky for me I have a pretty cool sup who understood my reason for leaving. And sure enough on my last day while saying bye to the team I broke down again!  Farmers was a great job, I appreciated the opportunity to work for them and I hope to one day return. I feel in a way this is a  sacrifice. I'm not young, Im going to be 29 next month and I really wanted to have a career, and I know Farmers could have taken me there but now I have no idea how old I will be when I finally get the chance to have it.
    In order to still have an additional income I have decided to serve tables again. Whoa!!! I mean what is more flexible? It's good money, short hours and very flexible, perfect for our family now. Lucky for me a great...no wait.. awesome friend was able to get me a job at Jack Stack downtown, she likes her job and says she makes pretty good money, so I am excited to start the beginning of July. It's a nice restaurant and looks like it brings in lots of money. Although excited it is scary to make a change like this. I think this will be a great fit while the girls are young, I will enjoy this time with them and hope for a career in... TBD

Staying at home I can be apart of all of this!!
Sisterly love

Parks all day long

Baby Einstein time

Silly mom and daughter moments

Running trail

I think she's going to be a thumb sucker

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