Thursday, February 22, 2018

New Home

  We have talked a lot about selling our home. Rusty always said soon, I thought no way, he thinks soon but well end up being here forever. Which honestly besides space, I love this house. It is full of our family memories, I can think of a memory in every corner of this home and the thought of leaving it makes me so sad to know  that we will no longer be in this home. But there is another side, the totally ecstatic side of me who is extremely excited and cant wait to make new memories in our new home.
  We had only a couple things we needed to do to home one fix our ceilings, paint, de clutter, really not too much. Going into this I thought it would be at least a month before we sold our home, but word on the street we are in a hot market right now, friends houses have been selling in hours! So needless to say the house went on the market on a Friday, at work I distracted with the 40 plus text approving showings. We had around 40 showings in day one, with a full asking price cash offer! Today was the inspection and if we passed then our home is sold officially!! It has been the smoothest thing ever.
  In regards to looking for a new home....Rusty and I totally did not see eye to eye on a home. I like the idea of a little used home that we could fix up just a little bit, nothing huge, not a real fixer upper. He wanted something brand new or on the newer side. Wow did we have discussions. But the following day after house went on market we went house shopping. I picked 4 we liked, first one was all mine. An older home, with LOTS of space, but needed new carpet, paint, kitchen update, but because of how big it was, it would have been a lot of money and work. We ended up making an offer on the 4th and last home. A brand new build which at this moment only has sheetrock up.  It was a home I had been eyeing for awhile. Its literally 5 minutes from our current home on a cul de sac which I love, but we totally lost our backyard privacy which was a must for me, but I guess not. 
  The home is scheduled to be done late March early April. Thankfully our buyer is allowing 60 days and are flexible in adding time if needed. The fun part is that we still get to pick cabinets, granite, all tile, carpet, plumbing fixtures, lighting and paint! Which is so fun, but also very scary! My fear is walking into the home like WHAT THE HECK DID I DO! But I'm sure it will be fine. So again this experience has gone so smoothly, I cant believe it! But I also am waiting for something to go wrong...isnt that what we all do, it can go this smoothly right? lol 



  November 4, 2017 we got the girls baptized. We have been attending our church for about 3 years now and thought it was time. I didn't think it would have been an emotional moment but thanks motherhood for always finding ways to make us moms shed those tears! It was just a personal moment, one I cant really share in words... Ive always felt a personal spirituality with God, I was unsure how to share this with my girls, so joining a church community, it made it a whole lot easier. Child ministries also is a blessing in teaching the girls.
   Seeing them actually being baptized was greatly symbolic, an amazing experience for us. To see the girls be blessed, for them to see and follow Gods was great. 

Back to Work

  Plan was to go back to a full time job when Brooke started Kindergarten next year. The closer it got I worried about who would watch the girls on breaks, monthly half days, I still wanted to be the mom who went to all the classroom parties, had lunch with the girls on their birthdays, volunteer yada yada, I knew that would be close to impossible if I went back to a corporate job. So when an opportunity came for me to work during school hours, same exact days off I figured I had to jump on it! Its a teachers assistant position at Brooke's preschool, this is our 3rd  year at Sunbeams and I really like the school and am happy to work there. Brooke gets to go to work with me and a discount on tuition is a little perk of the job as well.
   It took some adjusting but we are in the second week and its getting easier. Its only 30 hours a week and I feel its a lot to keep up with home and plus keep up with my workouts! (suburban problems) WE have all gotten use to the new schedule. Brooke had the biggest problem, she went from staying home with me and going to pre school 2x a week part days, to 5 days a week 7 hours a day. She was exhausted for the first month or so before she really started to get into the groove. She loves it and I love seeing her everyday, seeing her grow as a student and making real friends. Oh gosh, her and her bff, they are the cutest match ever, they are two peas in a pod, I am so lucky to be able to see her whenever I want, its an amazing perk of the job. Now I need to break into the school district so I can always be with them at school! (attachment issues)  This job really is the best for when Rusty travels, when he is away its no big deal at all I take care of them and work when they are at school, there is no need for sitters or help, PERFECT!
  I do have a new appreciation for working moms. This is annoying I know but I really love my workouts, and when I realized how pressed I was for time to get them in i absolutely HATED IT. I realized how good I had it to be able to drop Sophia off to school leisurely take Brooke and I to the gym and get a great workout in, oh how I miss those days. Then afterwards wed make our way to the grocery store, run errands, get tasks done at the house, no where to really be. Those days went too fast!
cowgirl day

fire safety day

making school parties!

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Summa, Summa Summa Time!

 I always thought of myself as a fall girl, never a summer girl! Or at least one who enjoys nice weather, you know the not too hot, not too cold kind of girl. But with Sophia and Brooke out of school Im starting to love summer more than I ever had. I enjoy looking and planning things for us to do together, library time is a fav, crown center, outside (WHEN THIS DAMN HUMIDITY GOES AWAY), splash parks, indoor pool at the YMCA, play dates ect. I love not having to get up too early and get ready for school...but that is quickly coming to an end. Its just nice to have them home with me full time again!

      In May on the last day of school we took trip to Dallas to visit Nana and Papa, and were surprised with a stay at the Great Wolfe Lodge, which the girls LOVED and still hear about two months later. I have to say I'm not a water person, I have a fear i try to hide from the girls, I worry about accidents in the water a lot. But they did great are have been since then in swimming lessons and have just recently graduated to the next level! It was  a relaxing but still active fun family get away! We recently went to MN to participate in a Warrior Dash with family and again, great time! Im blessed to have great little travelers, they do great on short, or long road trips, and obviously flying. But Princess Sophia tells us she prefers flying. I only within the last couple years have become a fan of road trips vs flying, and that may be because I can over pack and it doesn't matter because its all thrown in a car vs checked luggage! I love the memory making during the travels. I also never traveled a lot as a youth, most traveling came with dating/marrying Rusty, mainly because his family was every where and I was mostly based in the best city KC! When I was 18 I wanted to move as soon as possuble, and travel , but that never happened, so taking trips is what I love! I like being able to take the girls to see other places besides KC.  We are most excited for December 18'...Disney World!

Sophia turned 6, and told me she wanted short hair for her birthday! (maybe because two of there close friends in K also cut their long hair? ) So we took her to cut her hair, I must say I wasn't happy about it but I love it. It looks great on her and SOOO much easier to manage! Brooke however says she wants her hair to be so long it drags in the floor and will NOT let me cut her hair short, and also is very IMPATIENT when I have to brush her hair! I am like any other parent you think you have your kids figured out, WOW okay I get it, I get how to talk, discipline, approach yada yada yada, but then they freakin change! Brooke to me has always been in my eyes the more stubborn one, maybe more difficult for me to manage or discipline or figure out. However as Sophia gets older she is more intricate, she has layers, she is female and I think we all know we are a complex sex. She's not even close to a pre teen and I already experience the emotions, the deep thought the how the hell do I approach this! But I love this girl, I love that she is deep and has emotions and not afraid to show them. Its beautiful to me.

 There is an excitement going back to school, new classes, teachers, learning and much more. I know I have to let them go, but at least I have our summers. I will never be the mom counting down the days until the kids go back to school. I seem to have become that constant emotional sobbing mother at the start of each new school year, I guess I will just accept that role (far from the woman I was prior to kiddos) I just see it as another chapter closing but need to focus on the opening of a new chapter!

I love them most and always!

Monday, March 27, 2017

The baby is 4

Brooke turns 4 in two days.

  We go to the park or shopping while she is with me during the days, it was just last year I had both my girls going placing doing errands. But now its just Brooke and I. Anyways, while out I see these moms with their baby in the harness, and their little 2 year olds playing their best at the playground, or while shopping same thing mom has baby in harness and the 2 year old sitting in the cart. Then theres me looking at those moms saying to myself, that used to be me. I feel like not long ago, that used to be me. Now I'm running through the park playing hide and seek, watching Brooke do the monkey bars and saying your too big for that, lets go to the big girls swings! This always hurts to know that time is no longer, but Rusty always says we all have the same amount of time, which for some reason always makes me feel a bit better. I had my time with my babies and know I focused on enjoying every moment and every stage no matter how bittersweet is was to let go of.

  Okay back to the topic of Brooke, she is going to be four and going into 3 day pre K this fall then off to the big K. I had parent teacher conference with there teacher and she is doing great, right on par. I was taken a bit back because when I work with her she's so stubborn, she doesn't want to do any of the activities Id like to do to teach her, unless I use food to entice her. But her teacher says she does not see that and she does very well on her assignments and and in engaged. Which don't get me wrong makes me very pleased, but this girl! You don't even know., this girl will age me like no other. She loves hard and cares hard, makes your heart melt, then she will sass, she will disobey, and push any button you have. My gosh, it is so hard for me to discipline her, Rusty always says Im too passive with her and that why she pushes me. You know the parents who say "its easier to just let them do want rather than put up the fight" I was a parent who before would have said HECK no, not me. But she's exhausted me so to where I find my self putting away her shoes Id asked her to put away several times, or picking up her mess that she is taken 20 minutes to pick up. We are working on it. She's a good kid, but she can be stubborn and determined, which aren't bad character traits.

She has always been and still is more of a home body, she still likes to watch movies at home, get comfy on the sofa, eat snacks and color or cut paper into a million pieces. But she is very active and strong when she has to be or wants to be. This girl will power up hills on her bike and go a whole 3 miles. She will sprint and run past my expectations of someone her age. She is determined to keep up with Sophia. We have soccer starting next week and I am excited to see her. We play soccer just her and I at the gym, I think she has pretty good coordination for it.

Some of the things that come out of her mouth make me laugh so hard. Most of which she is mocking me.
  - When she talks to me and I'm not paying 100% attention and not looking, she will say "mom, mom, look at my eyes" once Im looking she will go on with her conversation. I did that to her all the time when she was not listening, I made her look at me so I could communicate with her.
- Privacy! The girls and I kinda just open doors whenever and its pretty relaxed, but there are times Im in the bathroom and the girls just barge in,  always just sing Privacy, that is now her favorite word and will use it all the time with the rest of the family.
- The worst is when she says she going to spank my butt! Oh gosh, I say this to her all the time, "you better not, or I'm gonna spank your butt" "Don't run in the parking lot, or I'm gonna spank your butt" you get the point, of course you can tell I don't spank, so they are always empty threats, (great parenting) but she will use that on me when she doesn't like what I'm doing.
- She walks around the house on her tip toes shaking her hips, I ask what are you doing, she says she's  mommy. No, not me I am not a hip shaker when I walk.
- When asked to do something, she always has an excuse that her legs hurt, or thats she's tired.
- She's definitely the early bird of the family. She will come into our room to wake us up, while pulling the blinds back she says look mom

She's a happy, smart, good hearted funny little girl who shines her bright light in our family. Happy Birthday my sweet Brookie!

one of our favs

best friends

we love those eyes!

her model pic