Monday, March 27, 2017

The baby is 4

Brooke turns 4 in two days.

  We go to the park or shopping while she is with me during the days, it was just last year I had both my girls going placing doing errands. But now its just Brooke and I. Anyways, while out I see these moms with their baby in the harness, and their little 2 year olds playing their best at the playground, or while shopping same thing mom has baby in harness and the 2 year old sitting in the cart. Then theres me looking at those moms saying to myself, that used to be me. I feel like not long ago, that used to be me. Now I'm running through the park playing hide and seek, watching Brooke do the monkey bars and saying your too big for that, lets go to the big girls swings! This always hurts to know that time is no longer, but Rusty always says we all have the same amount of time, which for some reason always makes me feel a bit better. I had my time with my babies and know I focused on enjoying every moment and every stage no matter how bittersweet is was to let go of.

  Okay back to the topic of Brooke, she is going to be four and going into 3 day pre K this fall then off to the big K. I had parent teacher conference with there teacher and she is doing great, right on par. I was taken a bit back because when I work with her she's so stubborn, she doesn't want to do any of the activities Id like to do to teach her, unless I use food to entice her. But her teacher says she does not see that and she does very well on her assignments and and in engaged. Which don't get me wrong makes me very pleased, but this girl! You don't even know., this girl will age me like no other. She loves hard and cares hard, makes your heart melt, then she will sass, she will disobey, and push any button you have. My gosh, it is so hard for me to discipline her, Rusty always says Im too passive with her and that why she pushes me. You know the parents who say "its easier to just let them do want rather than put up the fight" I was a parent who before would have said HECK no, not me. But she's exhausted me so to where I find my self putting away her shoes Id asked her to put away several times, or picking up her mess that she is taken 20 minutes to pick up. We are working on it. She's a good kid, but she can be stubborn and determined, which aren't bad character traits.

She has always been and still is more of a home body, she still likes to watch movies at home, get comfy on the sofa, eat snacks and color or cut paper into a million pieces. But she is very active and strong when she has to be or wants to be. This girl will power up hills on her bike and go a whole 3 miles. She will sprint and run past my expectations of someone her age. She is determined to keep up with Sophia. We have soccer starting next week and I am excited to see her. We play soccer just her and I at the gym, I think she has pretty good coordination for it.

Some of the things that come out of her mouth make me laugh so hard. Most of which she is mocking me.
  - When she talks to me and I'm not paying 100% attention and not looking, she will say "mom, mom, look at my eyes" once Im looking she will go on with her conversation. I did that to her all the time when she was not listening, I made her look at me so I could communicate with her.
- Privacy! The girls and I kinda just open doors whenever and its pretty relaxed, but there are times Im in the bathroom and the girls just barge in,  always just sing Privacy, that is now her favorite word and will use it all the time with the rest of the family.
- The worst is when she says she going to spank my butt! Oh gosh, I say this to her all the time, "you better not, or I'm gonna spank your butt" "Don't run in the parking lot, or I'm gonna spank your butt" you get the point, of course you can tell I don't spank, so they are always empty threats, (great parenting) but she will use that on me when she doesn't like what I'm doing.
- She walks around the house on her tip toes shaking her hips, I ask what are you doing, she says she's  mommy. No, not me I am not a hip shaker when I walk.
- When asked to do something, she always has an excuse that her legs hurt, or thats she's tired.
- She's definitely the early bird of the family. She will come into our room to wake us up, while pulling the blinds back she says look mom

She's a happy, smart, good hearted funny little girl who shines her bright light in our family. Happy Birthday my sweet Brookie!

one of our favs

best friends

we love those eyes!

her model pic 

Saturday, January 7, 2017


  Well our almost 6 year old!! What 6! Is well into her Kindergarten school year. She is doing so well and loves school. She is so smart, she is already reading, counts to 100, by ones and 5s, a little of adding and subtracting,and has most of her Kindergarten ribbons for all things she is supposed to know for the school year. She has met many friends and really enjoy it. We were blessed with an amazing teacher. She is very sweet, very personal, and sends emails with pictures of Sophia during the day doing school activities. I love being involved with the school. I like volunteering for whatever I can, stopping in to surprise Sophia is the best. One major perk of being at home. Ive gotten use to life without Sophia home with me all day, but I really love breaks. Christmas break was amazing and I did not want to send her back.
  Sophia is a grown little lady. She is herself, she's had her personality for sometime now, but as she gets older its more and more clear the person she is becoming. She's serious, but goofy at the same time. (Make sense?) She is serous about school, learning and showing, trying to master a task, she can take it so seriously. But I love the most she can be so silly still, so goofy, so funny. She makes the goofy faces and does silly dances. Unfortunately she finds things like butts and farts so funny. Her and her sister share the same sense of humor, they make each other laugh the most. They just get each other.
  With her I really thought she was my mini me (still do) but growing up and even as an adult, i considered myself more of a tom boy. I buy her clothes and try to make her very cute. But recently she's more about wanting dresses dresses and dresses. I put out her clothes for school shell come out complaining about how it doesn't fit, it itches, its baggy, whatever she can say to get a dress. She likes to be girly, playing dress up is one of her things she loves to do. I allow it and encourage and try to play with it.
  She is still my baby. She is not a cuddler, she at times will cuddle with me and kiss my cheek or hand, we TRY so hard to get more cuddles, but its just not her. (she's like me) she loves hard and you know she loves you but she can only cuddle for a minute and she's ready to go. This bugs Rusty so much. I don't know if she's not a cuddler or if its just her age and she growing up and doesn't want to.
she loves her
  She is an amazingly kind person which is all we want from her. She is good, she is kind. She is sweet. She at times is shy which has come out more this year. I know I grew up pretty shy and wish so much I wasn't. So I really try to influence her to be outgoing, and not to be afraid to show your personality and who you are. I have been a real selfish mom and not started her in gymnastics. My new years reso is to get her into it. She loves flipping and jumping. She does so much on her own and will at times hurt herself so I need to get her into class so she will learn the proper form.
   I had 4 drafts on this blog. I cant find time to finish or what to write about. I live with these girls everyday, I want to remember all things about them, it is so hard to blog about anymore, to remember all the things you want to and place it in a blog.


KC Girl

Friday, August 12, 2016


Oh my I don't know where to start! It all started on a Thursday, 8/11/16  a day I will never forget. Okay seriously now. Sophia is in Kindergarten. I have a school aged child, our days M-F are now planned, no random vacays, or trips to TX at any ole time we want because now we have this thing called a school year. No more random shopping trips and enjoying some Smoothie King with my girls on a random Wednesday afternoon while everyone else is at work or school. It is a hard chapter to shut. It is a bit different for a stay at home mom vs a working mom. Working moms have to get up everyday, get ready take kids to daycare, go to work. (I know it is hard on working moms too! Please don't take this as i feel it is any easier on working moms, because I know its not.) I on the other hand am with them everyday and yes she did go to 3 day preK, and summer school, but now for 9 months I have a real schedule, which I hate, but love at the same time. It gets us out and early everyday, gives us more structure, I just hate being without her all day. I think its the hardest when for the first 5 year of her life, I was with her all day, everyday, I knew what she did each day, how much activity she had, what she learned and saw, I know each and every meal she put into her body. Now I have to let this go. (insert sobbing mom)

With all that she is the most AMAZING kid I could ask for. Sophia from the beginning was a learner, which I loved!! She loves leaving me and going out on her own. She really makes this process so much easier, I guess if I had to choose whether i had a kid who hated going to school each morning or one who was super eager, id choose the latter. So far so great, she loved her first two days and wants to go back tomorrow,  (Saturday) After the first day, she asked when is it going to be night, I said we had 4 more hours,I asked her why, she said she wanted to go to Kindergarten. That made me very happy. I am happy she is in school, happy she seems to have a real caring awesome teacher, I love nothing more than to see her grow and learn, education for my kids is very important to me (umm... and every other parent out there) This does give me some alone time with Brookie, which I can say I really really enjoy it, poor girls has to wait 3 years to get it, I can tell she loves it too.

Theres no turning back now, 5 years flew by, each chapter really gets better and better, but its hard to close them knowing they can never be opened again, and you only hope you cherished every second of each day while you were in it!

after school treat


In July we took our longest road trip to Colorado to visit my sister and family!We went back and forth on whether or not to drive or fly. Sophia strongly suggested we fly (she's our little traveler) but we are going to drive to TX for Thanksgiving this year so this was going to be a nice test run to see if we can even do a long road trip! Luckily it went very well. Our first little family road trip was a small 3 hour trip to Omaha, I was not a road trip person. I was like a child asking how much longer, how much further, gosh I feel like I've been in the car for hours (it was 30 minutes) So on the Colorado trip I thought I was going to die! But I found out I really like road trips, I just have to be the driver the entire time!! I liked packing snacks, games and all things that go along with family road tripping. And it is kind of peaceful driving on roads you've never drove before, seeing things you would have otherwise never seen. Ive heard how boring driving through Kansas
could be. But I found beauty in it. The never ending green fields, the many large wind turbines, cows, horses, the view of just plain earth meeting the sky with nothing in between. It was enjoyable. Lucky me I have a husband who can relax for 8 hours and watch videos and take cat naps. I was super happy the girls did so well. I worried about them getting sick, Brooke had a short spell a couple hours away from coming back to KC, but nothing too bad, nothing a little water and a short break couldn't fix.

no one puts Melissa in the passenger seat is beautiful. I have never heard anything bad about it so I expected it would be a good time. But I had a great time and I loved the beauty of it and the activity the city offered! I think I am a little bit in love and another colorado trip is already in the talks. I am a big fan of Colorado! But the best thing was being able to see my sister who we have not seen in a LONG LONG time! My nephews are getting so big and are the sweetest boys you'd ever met, so handsome, my niece is a beautiful fun, silly smart little one! It was great getting all the kids together, they got  along so well and feel like Sophia and John are so similar, it was neat to see. My sister and I had some good quality sister time (except of the many interruptions often had with being moms) Rusty was very accommodating with allowing us time to climb the Manitou Incline! I love activity its fun to be able to do new challenging things and to do it with my sister who I don't get to see very often was the best.    We saw all we could in Colorado Springs and thank my sister for being our tour guide! It was a great visit! Looking forward to more!
thats better

The girls loved it and still say they miss their cousins, or when are they going to go to their cousins house! They had a great time. Although I think one of their highlight were just the hotel stays. They loved to see the room, pick their bed (each one slept with either rusty or I), and they had to have a pool. All in all we all had a great time!

Brooke was throwing a fit. 


Mountain climbers 

our hotel stays!


Park time!

Adorable Natalie!

During climb to the top! Earth beauty!

This girl was obsessed with climbing!

At the end. The girls were done!! And grumpy.